My mental state? Not suicidal, it's just an overreaction set.
Those are good to vent from time to time.
Glad I did.
----When I can't seem to pull myself off of the floor, I realize I need to remember what is great about life, love, and learning. When I can't seem to pull myself off of the floor, I go to Morrie.
Here's to you, bud.
Love wins. Love always wins.
Grand scheme of things:
* There are some mornings when I cry and cry and mourn for myself. Some mornings I'm so angry and bitter. But it doesn't too long. Then I get up and say, "I want to live..."
* Accept what you are able to do and what you are not able to do. Accept the past as past, without denying it or discarding it. Learn to forgive yourself and to forgive others. Don't assume that's its too late to get involved.
* Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too - even when you're in the dark. Even when you're falling...
* The culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. And you have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn't work, don't buy it.
* So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-sleep, even they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing down the wrong things.
* Dying is only one thing to be sad over. Living unhappily is something else.
* Love each other or perish.
* Forgive yourself before you die. Then forgive others.
* The tension of opposite? Life is a series of back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted...
Lesson by lesson:
“Do I wither up and disappear, or do I make the best of my time left?” (10)
“Accept what you are able to do and what you are not able to do.” (18)
“Accept the past as past, without denying it or discarding it.” (18)
“Learn to forgive yourself and to forgive others.” (18)
“Don’t assume that it’s too late to get involved.” (18)
“You have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn’t work, don’t buy it.” (35)
“Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do
something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn’t. You take certain things for
granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.” (40)
“So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they’re
busy doing things they think are important. This is because they’re chasing the wrong things.
They way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to
your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose
and meaning.” (43)
“Maybe death is the great equalizer, the one big thing that can finally make strangers shed a tear
for one another.” (51)
“The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in.” (52)
“Love is the only rational act.” (52)
“Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are
ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too – even when
you’re in the dark. Even when you’re falling.” (61)
“Do what the Buddhists do. Every day, have a little bird on your should that asks, ‘Is today the
day? Am I ready? Am I doing all I need to do? Am I being the person I want to be?’” (81)
“Once you learn how to die, you learn how to live.” (82)
“We really don’t experience the world fully, because we’re half-asleep, doing things we
automatically think we have to do.” (83)
“There is no foundation, no secure ground, upon which people may stand today if it isn’t the
family. If you don’t have the support and love and caring and concern that you get from a family,
you don’t have much at all.” (91)
“Love is so supremely important. As our great poet Auden said, ‘Love each other or perish.’”
“Wash yourself with the motion. It won’t hurt you. It will only help. If you let the fear inside, if
you pull it on like a familiar shirt, then you can say to yourself, ‘All right, it’s just fear, I don’t
have to let it control me. I see it for what it is.’” (105)
“Aging is not just the decay, you know. It’s growth. It’s more negative that you’re going to die,
it’s also the positive that you understand you’re going to die, and that you live a better life
because of it.” (118)
“If you’ve found meaning in your life, you don’t want to go back. You want to go forward. You
want to see more, do more.” (118)
“Accept who you are and revel in that.” (120)
“You have to find what’s good and true and beautiful in your life as it is now.” (120)
“You can’t substitute material things for love or for gentleness or for tenderness or for a sense of
“You know what really gives you satisfaction? Offering others what you have to give.” (126)
“Do the kinds of things that come from the heart…you’ll be overwhelmed at what comes back.”
“Love is how you stay alive, even after you are gone.” (133)
“The big things – how we think, what we value – those you must choose yourself. You can’t let
anyone – or any society – determine those for you.” (155)
“We don’t see what we could be. We should be looking at our potential, stretching ourselves into
everything we can become.” (156)
“Invest in the human family. Invest in people. Build a little community of those you love and
who love you.” (157)
“Be compassionate and take responsibility for each other. If we only learned those lessons, this
world would be so much better a place.” (163)
“You can’t get stuck on the regrets of what should have happened…you need to make peace with
yourself and everyone around you.” (167)
“You live on in the hearts of everyone you have touched and nurtured while you were here.”
“Death ends a life, not a relationship.” (174)
“Love is when you are as concerned about someone else’s situation as you are about your own.”